Matthew 12:30 – He who is not with Me is against Me; and he who does not gather with Me.. scatters”
Funny how you don’t notice things until it is pointed out. Once it’s pointed out, you can’t stop seeing it.
I loved books, movies, and especially music. When I came to the Lord seven years ago, I thought the Lord told me to give them up.
In response, I actually cried out in a fairly loud voice in my room when I was on my knees praying, “Lord, I know you’re telling me to give up books, movies, and music… BUT I DON’T WANT TO!”
I kid you not, I gasped.
I’m not a yeller by nature. And I had never yelled at the Lord, ever. I mean who does that?
So the fact I yelled that out, I gasped in complete surprise.
The next day, I told my best friend and she being the awesome friend she was… gave up her books and movies too. I had like hundred of movies on my computer and hard drives I had to delete. So much music. And so, so many books.
Once I was obedient, the Lord told me why with the verse above. Once the verse was pointed out to me, it was like I couldn’t NOT see it… how everything in my life was anti God. I mean everything.
A few years later, I heard the testimony of Mr. Schimmel of Good Fight Ministries. His testimony opened my eyes and ministered to my spirit. He made a ministry out of pointing out how most of these actors, musicians, etc literally sold their soul to Satan. They actually admit it!
But there is a second half to this story. One I am not proud of.
A few years back in 2016, I started backsliding. I didn’t even want to. But it was like work got harder and busier. It should have been a great year. That was the year the Lord gave us the Library. But I was getting farther and farther from God.
And one of the first things to creep back in was music. Then movies. Then books.
See, once I gave them up for Jesus, I didn’t miss them. Not even a little bit. I was so excited to have Jesus, I didn’t even want them.
But the farther I got from Jesus, the more these things crept back in. And none of those things satisfied. Despite the fact the entertainment did not satisfy, I still spent my time listening to the music or reading a book, checking out after work. Rather than spending my time with Him.
I thought, surely it’s not that big of a deal. I mean I know these things are not glorifying God. But it’s not affecting me. It’s not changing how I believe.
But it was affecting me. I missed God. He seemed so far away. When I first came to Jesus, He literally was all I thought about. I talked to Him all day every day, it seemed. During the backsliding time though, I was so busy working and worrying and dealing with life I barely thought about Him. And I missed Him.
It’s a long story, but my point is… what we fill our minds with does matter. And everyone out there is either for God… or against. NO middle ground.